Navigating the world with my inter-racial, inter-cultural family
We were late and swim lessons were beginning. One child in the pool and the next almost in, I am focused and in full mom mode. Until a woman, a white woman in her 40’s, gets really close to my body as she’s passing and asks in a low voice, “is your daughter adopted?”
Huh? This throws me off my game. “No.” I reply with a look that says, “What the …”.
She is flustered by this and says, “Oh, well mine is and we’re always looking for other adopted children.”
“O.K. lady,” I am thinking. I’ve heard this before and just keep going on about my business.
The next day she greets me at the front door of the pool, as if she’s waiting for me, and gets in my face again. “I’m sorry.” She says. “I have been thinking all night about what I said to you and I feel bad. I’m sorry.”
Hummph here’s my chance, I don’t even think, I just react. “Well, it was pretty racist, don’t you think?”
“Yes”, she admits. “It’s just that we’re always looking for adopted friends for our daughter. I’m sorry.”
I say, “thank you for the apology,” and walk onto the pool. For the rest of the summer she avoids me.
I know I have talked about this a handful of times here, but it still irks me when people ask if my children are adopted. The funny thing is I was retelling this story to a girlfriend yesterday, who had more than a decade-long career at an adoption agency, and she said well, “she’s just looking for friends for her black child”.
I laughed and said, “But the child was white!”
So I wonder now to myself, would it have made a difference to me if the child was black. Yes, I think it might have, even though I hate it when people ask me if my children are adopted. I guess in some way I’ve joined this club of mixed race families, adopted or not.
But there was also this secondary rage that bubbled up in me from this interaction. It came later when I marinated on the fact that I was almost knocked down by a complete stranger at the YMCA as she sought to fulfill her agenda of finding all the adopted kids in the class.
At first I thought, why does she need an adopted playmate for her young daughter? But then I realized that was a subject I really couldn’t deeply understand.
Then I became angry with the fact that a complete stranger was asking me such a deeply personal question? So if my child was adopted, aren’t you now asking me about my journey into how this child arrived in my life? This was no longer about “Mr. Pasedena.” This is about a painful period of time where perhaps I wanted children and couldn’t conceive them. Or worse this child was a victim of being unwanted or abandoned. The speculations are endless, and this woman feels she has the right to ask because my kids don’t look just like me?
I understand that people are just trying to make sense of what doesn’t look “naturally” true, a white mom birthing brown children. But where does the line of being curious and being respectful end? My daughter came home from school the other day and reported that a girl walked up to her and asked, “Are you adopted?”
I look forward to the day when there’s no longer a question about our children’s parentage; the day when mixed race families are the norm, and its unusual see an all white family.
I am a white woman, mother of two, married to a man from the Eastern Caribbean. I work to understand my whiteness everyday; and though I am a bit of a Pollyanna, I hope you find substance in my writing. I welcome your comments.
Laura
September 16th, 2009 at 9:22 pm
I know a lot of people like you who are very offended by being asked the question if their children are adopted. It has never angered me. I never assume people are coming at me from a negative place. I see it as people wanting to connect. Racist people wouldn’t be the ones approaching you. They are ones whispering and pointing from across the restaurant. Blonde mothers with biological black children are not the norm. So, it makes sense why someone would ask. Now, if they walked up and said to me that my family must be so ashamed, that would be racist. Curiousity is just a natural human emotion. I know that some people do not want strangers to approach them and ask them what they believe are personal questions. I am the opposite. I will galdly stop and talk. I answer the questions about if my family is supportive and what does their father look like. I listen to them tell me how they have a neighbor with biracial children that they think are just so beautiful. When I stopped being defensive, I made friends.
I am sure that having adopted children (especially outside the family’s race) is a club like the mothers with biracial children club. They want to talk to someone who shares their experiences. Women love to talk and share stories. They want to find other like children so that their kids can not feel like an outsider. I doubt the person had any idea that you would find it disrespectful.
Shirl
September 17th, 2009 at 12:43 am
Oh my gosh. It is racist, also separatist and just plain rude. First WHY IN THE WORLD would anyone want to find children just like their children to be friends with? What I’m hearing is this woman wants her adopted child to seek out other adopted children? Why not seek out CHILDREN – all different kinds of them?
I think in today’s world it’s difficult enough to find good people with acceptable morals and life standards and therefore are raising children we can trust to be good playmates for our children. Looking for playmates who are the same color or adopted or not is kind of silly to me.
I also think the woman was very disrespectful to put you on blast at the door, clearly only concerned about her own agenda.
Lindsay
September 20th, 2009 at 7:37 am
I don’t think it was rascist. If anything it was a tad presumptuous. I think she was eager to make connections for her child (as every parent is) and this may have overridden her judgement and good manners.
I think what truly offended you was the idea that your child isn’t genetically yours – something she may not have immediately considered since her child IS adopted.
Elizabeth
September 20th, 2009 at 8:06 am
I appreciate your comments. Of course it’s nice Shirl agrees with me, and I appreciate your insights as well, Laura & Lindsay. I agree it was presumptuous, and I agree she was trying to connect.
I admit I do get offended sometimes when people assume that my children aren’t genetically mine. I am very proud to be their mother, and I am honored that they chose me. When I look at them and see their faces as a blur between the lines of my husband and me, I am reminded of the unique blend of love that we share. When I look at them I remember that though we come from two completely different cultures, we have managed to create two beautiful people who synergize those differences into their own unique interpretation. When someone questions that special creation I do get offended sometimes.
But what felt racist to me was this automatic assumption that because I am white and my children are black they must be adopted. Why didn’t she assume I was the babysitter? If I was a brown skinned woman with white, or even lighter skinned children would she have presumed I was the babysitter? Perhaps I am going out on a limb by saying, yes, she would not have assumed I was their mother first. Why must she assume at all?
Rude yes, racist maybe; I will have to keep thinking about that.
Thanks for making me think and for reading my post
Laura
September 22nd, 2009 at 7:37 pm
It can always be used as a teaching moment. I exclaim with joy that those gorgeous children are absolutely my biological kids and aren’t they beautiful? You may get that person to think a little more before they make such an assumption again.
ze
September 24th, 2009 at 7:22 pm
I have a couple of friends who gets that also.
Kay
October 1st, 2009 at 2:20 pm
Hi I’m an adoptive mother who reads your blog to help me be the best white mother of a biracial son that I can be. I feel that multiracial families have a lot to learn from each other whether they are formed through interracial marriage or through adoption. I’ve been so upset about your post that it actually kept me up at night. To me, it really sounds like you think being an adoptive family is a bad thing. I too share your dream of a day when multiracial families are commonplace, but I also hope for a day when being mistaken for an adoptive family isn’t a hateful thing.
Elizabeth
October 2nd, 2009 at 12:37 am
Oh Kay,
My heart skipped a beat when I read your comment this morning. I am so sorry to give you the impression that being mistaken for an adoptive family is a hateful thing. That is not at all what I think or feel.
For me, being confused for an adoptive family opens up a wound that somehow interracial families are not OK on their own, that we don’t belong together.
It has nothing to do with adoption. It stems from the racist idea that not only should blacks and whites not marry, God forbid we should reproduce! I hope that makes sense.
Thanks for your comments. I appreciate that you read my blog and that you can tell me what you think anytime.
I also hope you also read the part that my instinct is to migrate toward interracial families with adopted black children; from my post: “…I’ve joined this club of mixed race families, adopted or not. “
Jennifer Morris (livinwpurpose)
November 20th, 2009 at 11:54 pm
I talk about this ALL the time…and blog about the stupid questions we get asked. People think, “hey it was just one question” but when that question comes day after day …along with other stupid questions we get FED UP!!!!
My children are half Sudanese and because their dark skinned, I have to CONVINCE people they are really my kids….it’s crazy!
Yes…it was pretty racist….